This is my favorite time of the year.
This time, last year, that beautiful little girl was so small, and it was just us two.
Then, this incredible baby boy came along and now together, we are a family of three.
Oh what an adventure this year was...
It was the year of my Saturn Return and the theme has been love.
Some years are changing years, this has been a changing year. Wherein, through God, through Love, I have found a greater peace than I have ever known.
Life humbled me and humbled me some more until I resigned my pride to reside in humility. To throw caution to the wind, surrender control and exist on Faith. It was an all-encompassing process, to disintegrate my false self entirely... And then: as I re-inherited parts of myself that had been buried under those untruths, I started regaining consciousness.
"this too shall pass"
I felt in my heart that I was on a journey, headed out of some shadows, toward something greater. So, I put my complete trust in God, I gave all my love to God.
"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.' This is the great and foremost commandment. The second is like it, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.'"
Love, God sustains me through what is the joyful, painful and perplexing work of figuring out what loving my neighbor and myself should be.
It's in this place of honesty, trust, and most of all love, that I am finding a deep, gratifying, divine happiness. I am finding my self. And now, like the butterfly in Goethe's words, I'm insane for the light, driven by my desire for higher love-making.
"And so long as you haven't experienced this: to die and so to grow, you are only a troubled guest on the dark earth." - Goethe
Year 27 changed me.
A pastor who I admire shared her thoughts on the following scriptures with me... She echoes my prayer for myself.
"I invite the Holy Spirit to develop these characteristics in me so that I can show the love of God in the same manner God loves me!"
Galations 5
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Here we go, 28!
eMn
This time, last year, that beautiful little girl was so small, and it was just us two.
Then, this incredible baby boy came along and now together, we are a family of three.
Oh what an adventure this year was...
It was the year of my Saturn Return and the theme has been love.
Some years are changing years, this has been a changing year. Wherein, through God, through Love, I have found a greater peace than I have ever known.
Life humbled me and humbled me some more until I resigned my pride to reside in humility. To throw caution to the wind, surrender control and exist on Faith. It was an all-encompassing process, to disintegrate my false self entirely... And then: as I re-inherited parts of myself that had been buried under those untruths, I started regaining consciousness.
"this too shall pass"
I felt in my heart that I was on a journey, headed out of some shadows, toward something greater. So, I put my complete trust in God, I gave all my love to God.
"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.' This is the great and foremost commandment. The second is like it, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.'"
Love, God sustains me through what is the joyful, painful and perplexing work of figuring out what loving my neighbor and myself should be.
It's in this place of honesty, trust, and most of all love, that I am finding a deep, gratifying, divine happiness. I am finding my self. And now, like the butterfly in Goethe's words, I'm insane for the light, driven by my desire for higher love-making.
"And so long as you haven't experienced this: to die and so to grow, you are only a troubled guest on the dark earth." - Goethe
Year 27 changed me.
A pastor who I admire shared her thoughts on the following scriptures with me... She echoes my prayer for myself.
"I invite the Holy Spirit to develop these characteristics in me so that I can show the love of God in the same manner God loves me!"
Galations 5
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Here we go, 28!
eMn
